I am, Part XI

 I am here

I have been here

I have moved on from one chapter

I have moved into another

I have slipped and damaged

myself

I am

drinking too much again

For reasons you wouldn't

understand

I am

still here

still lonely

still wondering what it would be like

to be adored the way I adore

To be admired

To truly be 

appreciated

I am

still

I am old

I am dying

while living

I am a stupid optimist

I am a fool

I am a man of means

to an end

I am a man

I am