Down

The water gets deep around here

We tread uncertainty and fear

But the freedom that we've gained

Should be enough for us to sustain

The pull

Under

You grab my hand, I grab my heart

You pull away, we drift apart

I don't like what's going on

We're going down

The air is crisp around here

We breathe in with no fear

But changes creep around the bend

And the signal, it's the end

The pull

Under

You grab my heart, I grasp your hand

We pull away, you drift too far

You like what's going on 

We're going down 

You grasp your breathe, I clasp my head

We pull too far, we drift apart

We hate what's going on 

We're gonna drown

We hate what's going 

We're going down

You grasp my hand, I grasp for you

We close our eyes

We're going

Down 

I am, part 15

I am,

Lost

Confused

Lonely

Horny 

Stupid

Careful

Split

Tearing apart

Falling apart 

Denying myself 

Of what makes me happy

To make you happy

But you don't seem happy

What's the point?

Why?

I'm becoming an empty shell feeding on

Hope

Stupid hope

What the fuck is wrong with me?

What the fuck is wrong with us?

What the fuck am I doing anymore?

I feel so stupid

And taken for granted, but mostly stupid

Because

I keep taking it

And keep waiting

Like something will change 

For me

For the better

Stupid stupid man

I am, 

Stupid and weak

Letting go

Maybe it's time to move on

I've been waiting so long

I don't know what I'm 

Waiting for anymore 

Maybe it's time I gave up

I've  been  wanting so long

I don't know what I'm 

Longing for anymore

I lost myself somewhere 

Sometime

I've given up on

Me

I've lost my way

And I can't see straight 

What will become of me

As i drift away?

No, no, not again

Not the same trap

The same fears

The unspilled tears

Maybe I need to

Move on

It's not about me

It's rarely about us

And I am lost 

Again