The light came on
I hoped for additional life
Or a chance
Of fate
Nothing is
Ever what
It
Seems
"Painting is silent poetry, and poetry is painting that speaks." Simonides, 6th-5th century, B.C.
I am
...drunken
...Hopeful
...an idiot
...still a dreamer
...cooking up something special
...going out of my way to please you
...ever vigilant
...grayer, older, non the wiser
...still in love
...unsure why you couldn't talk to me
...hopeless and hopeful
...still searching for that ultimate peak
...afraid of finding the end
...done for now, goodnight
It's never the same
It's never as good
We want to relive the ways
And feel that we should
It's never the same
It doesn't matter
Who's to blame
Emotions scatter
The wind picks up
and sends signals down
The heartbeats quickens
Smiles from lonely frowns
It's all about
What we care for
What we need
the value
in you
And
me
I gave my heart out
for free
You held it in your hand
Briefly
But you let it go
I never let you go
I still want you
You to want me
Sleep comes easy for some
But others yearn for forgiveness
Love and loss of abandon
Measures never quite full
But enough to sate
The wanting heart
I drink you in
You push away again
The dance continues
Different beats
Different songs
Same measure
She dances
In a lace dress
On the edge of the abyss
A child older than possible
A woman defined by time
And injustice
Falling
Not falling
It's all the same here
In eternity
The captain honors
Her dance
And she dies a thousand deaths
Before she dies
Another language
Another custom
Another day
Tedium
Boredom
Death
The seas claim another soul
In
Absenteeism
Beauty
Horror
Waves
Shock waves
Through my heart
My soul
My life
Responsibility
Faded colors
that bleed
into the soul
Faded commitment
that bleeds
into my heart
Wither or not
Without
the colors are all wrong
and the wind blows from within
wreaking havoc on my heart
and the spaces in between
indecision
in utero
in decisive
improper
the plaything decides not to play back
the future looks dark indeed
the decisions of our forefathers weight
on minds devoid of conscious thought
the bruises hide well
the evidence of hatred and sin
wreaking havoc on my life
and the relationships within
Breathe in the words
the meaning of my, life
Single handed obsession
Regard digression
Close my eyes
takes me back
Close your eyes
Take you away
There is no common ground
There is nothing to share
There is nothing left here
Be on your way
Breathe in the meaning
The words of my, life
Single handed digression
Disregarded obsession
I evacuate the location
Of my current state of mind
Relocated within
And without reason
Close my eyes
Close your eyes
Take us
away
we used to make a spark
we had a fire burning
between us
but now there is only chilly air
and the distance grows
between us
I tried to make the connection last
but selfishness proves too strong
I tried to give in but I gave up
and nothing will ever last this long
without
a decent
connection
I read your letter
it's stuck in my head
I felt the words you wrote
I felt the dread
And the scene you described to me
And the tale you decided to tell
shook me up
The elders at the table
with the flowers so blue
The decision to fall from
Heights beyond me and you
the crushing blow
the end of the breath of life
the devastation
the endless strife
I read your letter
and I cried more than a tear
I read your letter
and now I'm here
at the edge of the ledge of eternity
a step away from redemption
A breath away of uncertainty
and literal freedom
I step back
and punish all
who stay alive
nude
in front of the
entire world
voiceless
among the screams
deafening
embarrassed
and bare assed
the same
eyes closed
heart open wide
let me know
I stand before you
I stand beside you
exposed
Wipe us out
in masses
or one by one
Wipe us out
Even the score
The earth is fighting back
creating viruses
and diseases unknown
And we can do nothing about it
Our own hubris
will be the end for us
Wipe us out
With new variants
Old favorites
and the plague
Wipe us out
Kill us all
The evil and innocent, alike
The angels and the demons
The just and unjust
The mighty and the powerless
will all fall
to the final
scourge
itch
unable to scratch
tingling, teasing
invisible
sensation
unable to reach
endless, relentless
unyielding
aggravation
helpless
unable to mend
tickling, annoying
unwavering
exhaustion
unable to sleep
with this
unyielding
relentless
tingling
itch
There is always a knife close to the vein
Or a roof tall enough to float from
or a vehicle fast enough to meet a tree
or a pandemic sitting right here
ready to finish this
Mirrors
Glass
And Eyes
Show us what
we don't want to see
An image unrefined
untouched
and full of misery
Reflections of the mind
the body
the soul
for everyone to see
Reflections of the fear
the dreams
the hopes
and what we want to be
reflections of myself now
and in the past
and in
eternity
Dancing on the edges
of what can be seen
hides a darkness
a blackness obscene
Preying on my weakness
of what I hold dear
hides a phantom
of my imaginary fear
I can see it coming
getting closer every day
I know it's coming
Can't get out of the way
The darkness
that we all run from
the darkness
that surrounds all
the darkness
the we come from
the darkness
I hear the call
Dancing on the line
between worlds so close
hides a secrets
that we fear the most
Praying on my weakness
and all I hold dear
Hides the mystery
and release of all my fear
I can see it coming
getting closer every day
I know it's coming
and I'm in it's way
The darkness
that we all run from
the darkness
that surrounds all
the darkness
the we come from
the darkness
I hear the call
the darkness
the inevitable darkness
coming for me
coming for you
The darkness
that we all run from
the darkness
that surrounds all
the darkness
the we come from
the darkness
I hear the call
I can see it
at the edge of my vision
growing closer every day
every way
the darkness
we all will
feel