Now, right now

Pack me up 

Ship me out

Show me love

Pick me up

Dust me off

Show me now 

Take my time

Take it easy

Don't forget how

To show me

You love me

Now

End, tomorrow

End all of the nonsense

End all of the pain

Level the playing field

After all, we're the same

Begin to process the future

Begin to take it all back

Be aware of the outsider

And all of his attacks

For tomorrow is promised to no one

And no one will forever persevere

Tomorrow will be our undoing

Tomorrow, oh so very near

End all of the bickering

End all of the pain

Forgive all of the sins

Release all the distain

Begin to process the future

Begin to take it all back

Be aware of the outsider

And all of his attacks

For tomorrow is promised to no one

And no one will forever persevere

Tomorrow will be our undoing

Tomorrow, oh so very near

End all of the agony

End the endless attack

Forgive the innocence of your youth

No sense in taking it all back

Begin to process the future

Begin to take it all back

Be aware of the outsider

And all of his attacks

For tomorrow is promised to no one

And no one will forever persevere

Tomorrow will be our undoing

Tomorrow, oh so very near

Chances

Your demons

where do they dwell

Internal or external?

How deep is the well?

You try to balance the scales

With credit you cannot repay

There are wins and fails

What makes you think you can stay?

The darkness closes in

The light fights for every flare

The unseen devours

And the darkness

The darkness doesn't care

Be a hero

Take the walk 

Despite the weakness

Be the hero

Take the chance

Despite internal weakness

Time runs out for everyone

Time if fleeting, you got to run

There is no time

for second chances

Or 

any more

chances

The time is now

 

Good enough

I have problems

And I have dreams

I have desires

But nothing is what it seems

Will you be the death of me?

Should I close my eyes and die?

Give in

I have issues

I have screams

I have credits

Nothing gets in the way of dreams

Will you give life to me?

Should I open my eyes to a new reality?

Gave in

What happens 

when there is nothing left to give?

The tank empty

How are we going to live? 

Who decides 

Where we ultimately go?

Confusion

Does anyone really know?

The ground

Rushed towards my head

Blacked bones

Did you wish I was dead?

Cohabitation

Means nothing

Self-containment

Would mean everything

But life determined a different path

Yours finally clean, mine dark and gray

An anchor to your sunrise

Maybe I should just fade away

It can be funny

As well as a little sad

these moments of clarity

they are all I have

Nothing will end happy

If I prayed, I'd ask for time

I can only hope for moments

And make them mine

A little is better than none

A little is good enough

good enough

Happiness

The weight of words

Keep me down

And the height of words

Lift me up

But the duality keeps

me grounded

The worst and the best

The bitter and the rest

The best of times

The worst of me 

Keep shining bright

Keep shining the light

And I will follow

I wanted to do something right

Out of something so wrong

And I wanted to make you a star

Of your very own song

The worst and the best

The bitter and the rest

The best of times

The worst of me 

Did you say a little prayer

To help my lonely soul

Did you keep me close

I will never know

The worst and the best

The bitter and the rest

The best of times

The worst of me 

Keep me here

Keep me close

Keep me here

I may never know

Happiness

Away

If there wasn't a single breath

If there wasn't at least a spark

I'd simply

Fade

Away

from

you

What was that, again?

It's only Tuesday

At the same time

It's the end

Of the world

Can you explain

the end of times

Can you believe

In this?

What did you expect

The world to spin on

What did you want

Everything inside?

Can you explain

What I have wanted?

What I waited for

What was that?

Fly

Away

Fly on your own

Fly

Away

Be gone

It was a magical moment

Brought down to earth

What do you want

What do you need

Let me go

Let's go

Lets go

There is nothing to stop us now

What do you want now?

There is nothing stopping us now

What's Stopping you now?

What?

They said it best

 If you only knew....

From the dead

I feel like

My voice has returned

After a long slumber

I have returned

From the dead

Into the light

There was always a moment

Where the light blinded your eyes

And when reopened, yielded

The greatest surprise

Don't look away

Don't turn away

Stare directly

Into the light

So Stupid

I haven't been

I haven't

I tried

I would do anything

I was

So

Stupid

Flesh

Tearing the flesh

From bone

Takes more work

That you think

Tearing the best

from the remains

Takes an instinct

Undefined

Tearing my heart

from my chest

Can happen 

Everyday

Tearing the flesh

from my love

Gives way to 

infection

Upside down

There was the ball

In your court

I cried foul

Even if it was right

I took control and

Ruined it, yet again

Best intention

Doesn't mean shit

I tried to make it mine

But it wasn't my time

So I forfeit the serve

And got what I deserve

There is no hope for me

I'm just a memory

I don't know what to do

Tell me what you know

I was without

A net, no safety

I was alone

No safety

Let me be

Let me think

What the hell is going on

What did you think?

I am broken up

I'm broken down

I'm letting up

I let you down

Turn that frown

Upside down

Welcome to my world

It's all crazy

It's all upside down

Welcome to my life

It's all insane

It's all upside down

What more is there

That I can give

What more is there

That I should live with

What more is there

That you say is right

What more is there

in the dark of night

Turn that frown

Upside down

Welcome to my world

It's all crazy

It's all upside down

Welcome to my life

It's all insane

It's all upside down

What

What am I 

without you

an insignificant

Thing

What Am I 

With you not by my side

Another darkened day

Where love has gone to hide

Don't pray to your god

not just yet

Don't make any accusations

Don't even jest

Because when the daylight breaks

And the surf is calm

It's on like you wouldn't believe

Like Donkey Kong

Let's get in the drink

Unapologetic

No apologies spoken

no warmth in the embrace

the notes tickle my spine

What a fantastic race

The deeper we fall

The higher we ascend

The more we give away

The more we bring in 

There's no need to apologize

we all, are

Numb

Numb my pain

Numb Numb Numb

Numb the insane

Numb numb numb

Numb the irrational

Numb the faint of heart

numb the struggle

Within my beating heart

Numb it all

Make it all numb

So I can face

Another

Day

Unless the numbness

Takes it all away

Deepest Cut

The deepest cut

is inflicted by those you love

Not your enemy

 

But the difference

is negligible

Within

Am I a loser

Or A winner

Or somewhere in between

am I a faker

Until I make her

Or is there any reason

I still scream

Am I an artist

Or a fanatic

Or a lunatic within

When will we ever have the truth

Of what fills the spaces within

The space

within

Outside

If I'm out here

and you're in there

How will we ever

come to terms

With what we have become

Nothingness

I keep trying

and fall outside the lines

I keep hoping

but I'm never in-bounds

No matter what I do

It's never enough for you

I should fade away to nothing

nothing

I keep praying

to a God that doesn't exist

I keep plying

A hope that will not resist

No matter what I do

It's never enough for you

I should fall away to nothing

Nothing

And leave you in peace

Soothe the ghosts

Nothing can be done here

but we will try anyway

nothing can smooth over

the unending crushing weight

We try to make it right

try to make it just so

but the effort falls too short

And the progress is no go

We work to make it good

but nothing every goes through

How do we

Soothe the ghosts

of the past we

want to favor the most

How do we 

Soothe the ghost

of feelings never shared

I think I hate this the most

Nothing can be said here

words, they fall too short

Nothing can start here

the end began before the start

We try to make it right

try to make it so

but the effort falls too short

we try to make it work

try to make it good

but nothing every goes through

How do we

Soothe the ghosts

of the past we

want to favor the most

How do we 

Soothe the ghost

of feelings never shared

I think I hate this the most

I close my eyes

picture a time

when everything falls into place

I take my time 

and open my eyes

to a feeling I cannot replace

We try to make it right

try to make it so

but the effort falls too short

we try to make it work

try to make it good

but nothing every goes through

How do we

Soothe the ghosts

of the past we

want to favor the most

How do we 

Soothe the ghost

of feelings never shared

I think I hate this the most

Choice

Influence

Is fleeting

The things we can change

Are within

We cannot push the boundaries

We cannot change the past

Accept what it is

Accept yourself

Others don't influence

What makes you, you 

The death of you

Dwells within

I hoped to accommodate

The wishes held deep within

I hoped to accelerate

The fire burning within

I was wrong

So very wrong

The fight

Is in you

I can only provide the basis

By which you can choose

If it's me or you 

Or the death of me and you 

I am, 13

I am still here

not that it matters

I am still here

Longer than anyone

I am

Not enough

I am just an imposter

For you

I am

The one who had been here

I am 

The fool who believed 

I am 

ME

There is no control

1, 2, 3 ,4 

I feel the beat

The drive to the melody

I felt the verse before the chorus

I lived the verses in order

I forgot the holdover

The hook, the cut, the memory

I forgot

me

What You give

You wanted to find love

It's been so very long

You want to feel the freedom

You want to be wanted

Little did you know

That the secret to love

Is inside you

It's been there forever

The only thing to know

About love

is that you get 

what you give

What you give

I tried to be a hero

I was wrong

So wrong , I can't explain

You wouldn't get it

There is nothing

Stopping your love

There is nothing 

Keeping you down

Little did you know

That the secret to love

Is inside you

It's been there forever

You get what you give

What you give

Whatever you are willing

To connect with

To part with

To be with 

To alleviate

To elevate

To be a 

Part of

Love isn't something you get

It's something you give

Interdimensional Being

There was a slit

In the timeline

I burst through

Like an atom bomb

The metal of creation

Burns deep within

The carbon form

Takes shape

Don't count me out

Don't count on me

I'm a figment

Interdimensional Being

Drips of uncertainty

Interdimensional Being

All about me

Breathe the breath of life

Exhale the waste of yesterday

Inhale hope and dreams

Export existential reach

I'm a figment

Take my hand

I lead you far away

Take my hand

There nothing left anyway

I tried to make it about you

But I'm an

Interdimensional Being

A being 

Within the realm of possibility

Without the realm of nothingness

I am a being

I am 

Interdimensional

Being

Feed my love

Feed my soul

Feed me

 

I am, Part XII

 I am

Still

Always

Forever

yours

I am

Above

Beyond 

and below

comprehension

I am 

absolute

Undeterred

Unfortunate

I

Am 

part

12

again

20

 There's been something for you

Hiding in plain sight

for twenty years

But did you read it?

Sunrise

So dependable, to a fault

Irrefutable, I am not

But I've been here

Standing in your way

I've stayed here

No matter how you swayed

And like the sunrise

 I will be here in the morning

Like the sunrise

In mourning

Like the sunrise

I will help you greet the day

Like the sunrise

It is the only way, for me

Gone

 Shh

The time to speak has passed

The moment, like so many others

Gone

In an instant

A blink of the eye

And the world moves on

Completely

Incoherently

Gone

I hoped for so much better

I prayed for your return

Instead, I received nothing

Not a word

Forlorn

Between the silences

Beneath the shadows tall

I hid from you

I hid from me

Gone

The sunlight warm

The moonlight cool

the in-between 

So smooth 

And uneventful

I long for the friction

the Passion

the heat 

before

we're 

Gone

I am, Part XI

 I am here

I have been here

I have moved on from one chapter

I have moved into another

I have slipped and damaged

myself

I am

drinking too much again

For reasons you wouldn't

understand

I am

still here

still lonely

still wondering what it would be like

to be adored the way I adore

To be admired

To truly be 

appreciated

I am

still

I am old

I am dying

while living

I am a stupid optimist

I am a fool

I am a man of means

to an end

I am a man

I am

Like Batman

 Like Batman bending the rules

I tried to make it work for me

Aboard this ship of fools

How did that work for me?

I seek justice

I seek love

I seek forgiveness

Push came to shove

Like Batman

I'm gone in the night

Like Batman

A dark night

The comics got it wrong

There is nothing worth it

No true love song

No redemption to be had

I seek justice

I seek love

I seek truth

Like Batman

Never had I been so alone

Unsheltered against the cold

Never had I wished I had gone

And gave up all hope

I forgave your sins

You count mine

I forgave your indiscretions

You weaponized mine

Like Batman

Seeking Vengeance

Seeking Justice

Punishing those who love

Who gave you everything

I seek justice

I seek love

I seek forgiveness

Push came to shove

Like Batman

I'm gone in the night

Like Batman

A dark knight

Underfoot

 I was there

did you see me?

did you feel my presence

in the room?

I was there

Did you want me

did you care that

I wanted you?

I am here

and I see me

and you

for what you truly are

I am here

and I feel used

 and alone

And out of reach

There is nothing more I can do

without losing more and more of myself

There is nothing more I can give

Without fading into the darkness

There is nothing more

for me to do

except finally get out of the way

get out from being

under 

your foot