I am here
I have been here
I have moved on from one chapter
I have moved into another
I have slipped and damaged
myself
I am
drinking too much again
For reasons you wouldn't
understand
I am
still here
still lonely
still wondering what it would be like
to be adored the way I adore
To be admired
To truly be
appreciated
I am
still
I am old
I am dying
while living
I am a stupid optimist
I am a fool
I am a man of means
to an end
I am a man
I am
Like Batman bending the rules
I tried to make it work for me
Aboard this ship of fools
How did that work for me?
I seek justice
I seek love
I seek forgiveness
Push came to shove
Like Batman
I'm gone in the night
Like Batman
A dark night
The comics got it wrong
There is nothing worth it
No true love song
No redemption to be had
I seek justice
I seek love
I seek truth
Like Batman
Never had I been so alone
Unsheltered against the cold
Never had I wished I had gone
And gave up all hope
I forgave your sins
You count mine
I forgave your indiscretions
You weaponized mine
Like Batman
Seeking Vengeance
Seeking Justice
Punishing those who love
Who gave you everything
I seek justice
I seek love
I seek forgiveness
Push came to shove
Like Batman
I'm gone in the night
Like Batman
A dark knight
I was there
did you see me?
did you feel my presence
in the room?
I was there
Did you want me
did you care that
I wanted you?
I am here
and I see me
and you
for what you truly are
I am here
and I feel used
and alone
And out of reach
There is nothing more I can do
without losing more and more of myself
There is nothing more I can give
Without fading into the darkness
There is nothing more
for me to do
except finally get out of the way
get out from being
under
your foot
