a letter
handwritten, with love
reaches a heart
on another shore
the words
they capture the moment
the intensity
the desire
the meaning
the commitment
the yearning
the fear
a million miles
a single a mile
it doesn't matter
nothing matters
except the words
and the intent behind them
that is all
that matters
it shouldn't be so difficult
anymore
I shouldn't have to fight back tears
anymore
it shouldn't be so bleak
some days
I shouldn't have to fight back screams
or tears of rage
I tried to do everything right
maybe not everything
I tried to do most things right
and got burned
forgave the unforgivable
and crushed my soul
I didn't have all the answers
I still don't
I didn't have any courage
I have some
I didn't have the strength
weakness still
I didn't have the will
to just walk away
I shouldn't feel so lonely
with you by my side
I shouldn't feel so desperate
maybe it's my lack of pride
I shouldn't feel it'd be better
if maybe I'd died
I shouldn't have to relive
every single lie
and when the tears stop
and the rage subsides
and the sadness eases
and memories hide
I can face
another day
of melting into
oblivion
in your eyes
a new low
embarrassment
stretching from coast to coast
power
unused, fueling
flames of utter
disgrace
a fall from grace
(if it was ever attained)
and we watched
as a right became a mob
an act of insurrection
and violence
and death
stolen crowns
regretful actions
this place will never be the same
again
