Upside down

 There was the ball

In your court

I cried foul

Even if it was right

I took control and

Ruined it, yet again

Best intention

Doesn't mean shit

I tried to make it mine

But it wasn't my time

So I forfeit the serve

And got what I deserve

There is no hope for me

I'm just a memory

I don't know what to do

Tell me what you know

I was without

A net, no safety

I was alone

No safety

Let me be

Let me think

What the hell is going one

What did you think?

I am broken up

I'm broken down

I'm letting up

I let you down

Turn that frown

Upside down

Welcome to my world

It's all crazy

It's all upside down

Welcome to my life

It's all insane

It's all upside down

What more is there

That I can give

What more is there

That I should live with

What more is there

That you say is right

What more is there

in the dark of night

Turn that frown

Upside down

Welcome to my world

It's all crazy

It's all upside down

Welcome to my life

It's all insane

It's all upside down

What

What am I 

without you

an insignificant

Thing

What Am I 

With you not by my side

Another darkened day

Where love has gone to hide

Don't pray to your god

not just yet

Don't make any accusations

Don't even jest

Because when the daylight breaks

And the surf is calm

It's on like you wouldn't believe

Like Donkey Kong

Let's get in the drink

Unapologetic

No apologies spoken

no warmth in the embrace

the notes tickle my spine

What a fantastic race

The deeper we fall

The higher we ascend

The more we give away

The more we bring in 

There's no need to apologize

we all, are

Numb

Numb my pain

Numb Numb Numb

Numb the insane

Numb numb numb

Numb the irrational

Numb the faint of heart

numb the struggle

Within my beating heart

Numb it all

Make it all numb

So I can face

Another

Day

Unless the numbness

Takes it all away

Deepest Cut

The deepest cut

is inflicted by those you love

Not your enemy

 

But the difference

is negligible

Within

Am I a loser

Or A winner

Or somewhere in between

am I a faker

Until I make her

Or is there any reason

I still scream

Am I an artist

Or a fanatic

Or a lunatic within

When will we ever have the truth

Of what fills the spaces within

The space

within

Outside

If I'm out here

and you're in there

How will we ever

come to terms

With what we have become

Nothingness

I keep trying

and fall outside the lines

I keep hoping

but I'm never in-bounds

No matter what I do

It's never enough for you

I should fade away to nothing

nothing

I keep praying

to a God that doesn't exist

I keep plying

A hope that will not resist

No matter what I do

It's never enough for you

I should fall away to nothing

Nothing

And leave you in peace

Soothe the ghosts

Nothing can be done here

but we will try anyway

nothing can smooth over

the unending crushing weight

We try to make it right

try to make it just so

but the effort falls too short

And the progress is no go

We work to make it good

but nothing every goes through

How do we

Soothe the ghosts

of the past we

want to favor the most

How do we 

Soothe the ghost

of feelings never shared

I think I hate this the most

Nothing can be said here

words, they fall too short

Nothing can start here

the end began before the start

We try to make it right

try to make it so

but the effort falls too short

we try to make it work

try to make it good

but nothing every goes through

How do we

Soothe the ghosts

of the past we

want to favor the most

How do we 

Soothe the ghost

of feelings never shared

I think I hate this the most

I close my eyes

picture a time

when everything falls into place

I take my time 

and open my eyes

to a feeling I cannot replace

We try to make it right

try to make it so

but the effort falls too short

we try to make it work

try to make it good

but nothing every goes through

How do we

Soothe the ghosts

of the past we

want to favor the most

How do we 

Soothe the ghost

of feelings never shared

I think I hate this the most

Choice

Influence

Is fleeting

The things we can change

Are within

We cannot push the boundaries

We cannot change the past

Accept what it is

Accept yourself

Others don't influence

What makes you, you 

The death of you

Dwells within

I hoped to accommodate

The wishes held deep within

I hoped to accelerate

The fire burning within

I was wrong

So very wrong

The fight

Is in you

I can only provide the basis

By which you can choose

If it's me or you 

Or the death of me and you 

I am, 13

I am still here

not that it matters

I am still here

Longer than anyone

I am

Not enough

I am just an imposter

For you

I am

The one who had been here

I am 

The fool who believed 

I am 

ME

There is no control

1, 2, 3 ,4 

I feel the beat

The drive to the melody

I felt the verse before the chorus

I lived the verses in order

I forgot the holdover

The hook, the cut, the memory

I forgot

me

What You give

You wanted to find love

It's been so very long

You want to feel the freedom

You want to be wanted

Little did you know

That the secret to love

Is inside you

It's been there forever

The only thing to know

About love

is that you get 

what you give

What you give

I tried to be a hero

I was wrong

So wrong , I can't explain

You wouldn't get it

There is nothing

Stopping your love

There is nothing 

Keeping you down

Little did you know

That the secret to love

Is inside you

It's been there forever

You get what you give

What you give

Whatever you are willing

To connect with

To part with

To be with 

To alleviate

To elevate

To be a 

Part of

Love isn't something you get

It's something you give

Interdimensional Being

 There was a slit

In the timeline

I burst through

Like an atom bomb

The metal of creation

Burns deep within

The carbon form

Takes shape

Don't count me out

Don't count on me

I'm a figment

Interdimensional Being

Drips of uncertainty

Interdimensional Being

All about me

Breathe the breath of life

Exhale the waste of yesterday

Inhale hope and dreams

Export existential reach

I'm a figment

Take my hand

I lead you far away

Take my hand

There nothing left anyway

I tried to make it about you

But I'm an

Interdimensional Being

A being 

Within the realm of possibility

Without the realm of nothingness

I am a being

I am 

Interdimensional

Being

Feed my love

Feed my soul

Feed me

 

I am, Part XII

 I am

Still

Always

Forever

yours

I am

Above

Beyond 

and below

comprehension

I am 

absolute

Undeterred

Unfortunate

I

Am 

part

12

again

20

 There's been something for you

Hiding in plain sight

for twenty years

But did you read it?

Sunrise

So dependable, to a fault

Irrefutable, I am not

But I've been here

Standing in your way

I've stayed here

No matter how you swayed

And like the sunrise

 I will be here in the morning

Like the sunrise

In mourning

Like the sunrise

I will help you greet the day

Like the sunrise

It is the only way, for me

Gone

 Shh

The time to speak has passed

The moment, like so many others

Gone

In an instant

A blink of the eye

And the world moves on

Completely

Incoherently

Gone

I hoped for so much better

I prayed for your return

Instead, I received nothing

Not a word

Forlorn

Between the silences

Beneath the shadows tall

I hid from you

I hid from me

Gone

The sunlight warm

The moonlight cool

the in-between 

So smooth 

And uneventful

I long for the friction

the Passion

the heat 

before

we're 

Gone