15 year anniversary of this blog

I've been writing, off and on, for 15 years here
I've shared my thoughts, dreams, nightmares, and words that rhyme

It's been a weird journey with plenty of followers
followed by plenty of time alone

still I write
for myself
for you
for anyone
for no one

I enjoy this, sometimes more than others
Sometimes less

My brain continues to spill out the words
that my heart continues to shape

for me
for you
for no one

for everyone

It's been a long a journey
and the road continues

into my heart
into my mind
into
oblivion

and beyond

feel

the harden shell fails
exposing the soft inner workings
of a man in tune with
his surroundings and life

the strife the life the wife
the destinations unknown
the wishes wished upon shooting stars
the times left all alone

rise beyond the barriers
settle in a uncomfortable zone
seek the elevated understanding
relate to more than one

the forsaken path and trajectory
the darkness that fills the space
in between the smiles and the tears
the miles of walking to reach something real

just to feel
alive

the hardened shell protects
the inner thoughts and dreams
of a man alienated
from the surroundings and life

The life the wife the strife
it's always outside the comfort zone
silly wishes that never come true
endless dreams of you

sink below the darkness
into a new elevated depression
the space is filled with demons
drowning to reach something real

Just to feel

When all is safe

I want to get out, to run, to shop, to eat
to forget the daily routines I'm stuck in
the same four walls, limiting, constricting, mocking
I'm stuck like them, stationary, unmoving

I can see the town, the streets I walked
the shops, cafes, the parks
I recall the aroma of food, the bustle, the children
I can sense them near, but oh so distant

I want to see them, to be them, to eat out
I want to escape the cozy prison I am enclosed in
I want to bid the walls adieu, so long, c'ya later
I want to be free

again


Hopefully soon



When all is safe


again

What is your secret?

So tell me
what is your secret? What do you desire?
Is it something so illegal? Or something immoral that fuels the fire?
What is the thing, that drives you? What do you require?
What is the secret?

Will is save you, or set you afire?

Burning bridges

There were bridges, burning
Broken hearts, full of yearning

Darkened rooms, of misery
Shed no light, on what's in me

Close my eyes
and block out the distractions
Take a breath
Lungs keep on contracting

Darkened rooms, of mystery
Shed no light, what's got into me

There were bridges, burning
I walked across, full of yearning

Fell down below, on the creek bed
Felt so alone, stuck inside of my head

Close my eyes
Block out the clear blue skies
Take a breath and
Try not to die

Darkened rooms, a mystery, of misery
Shed no light, on what's in me, got into me
Bridges burn , I lit them, on fire
Broken heart full of yearning, and desire

Close my eyes
Take a breath

Burning bridges
And hearts