Down

The water gets deep around here

We tread uncertainty and fear

But the freedom that we've gained

Should be enough for us to sustain

The pull

Under

You grab my hand, I grab my heart

You pull away, we drift apart

I don't like what's going on

We're going down

The air is crisp around here

We breathe in with no fear

But changes creep around the bend

And the signal, it's the end

The pull

Under

You grab my heart, I grasp your hand

We pull away, you drift too far

You like what's going on 

We're going down 

You grasp your breathe, I clasp my head

We pull too far, we drift apart

We hate what's going on 

We're gonna drown

We hate what's going 

We're going down

You grasp my hand, I grasp for you

We close our eyes

We're going

Down 

I am, part 15

I am,

Lost

Confused

Lonely

Horny 

Stupid

Careful

Split

Tearing apart

Falling apart 

Denying myself 

Of what makes me happy

To make you happy

But you don't seem happy

What's the point?

Why?

I'm becoming an empty shell feeding on

Hope

Stupid hope

What the fuck is wrong with me?

What the fuck is wrong with us?

What the fuck am I doing anymore?

I feel so stupid

And taken for granted, but mostly stupid

Because

I keep taking it

And keep waiting

Like something will change 

For me

For the better

Stupid stupid man

I am, 

Stupid and weak

Letting go

Maybe it's time to move on

I've been waiting so long

I don't know what I'm 

Waiting for anymore 

Maybe it's time I gave up

I've  been  wanting so long

I don't know what I'm 

Longing for anymore

I lost myself somewhere 

Sometime

I've given up on

Me

I've lost my way

And I can't see straight 

What will become of me

As i drift away?

No, no, not again

Not the same trap

The same fears

The unspilled tears

Maybe I need to

Move on

It's not about me

It's rarely about us

And I am lost 

Again

Expressions of you

Your fingers twitch

When you sleep

You catch your breath

With the need

Your furrowed brow

When you think

Sends me to the edge

To the brink

Expressions of you

Your smile shines

With a Frenchie pup

You can never get

Get enough

The closed eyes

Of a sleeping angel

Your closed eyes

My angel

Expressions of you

I am, part fourteen

 I am...Still here

maybe high

Maybe more

But I reach a clean hand out

To clasp yours, and I say

Welcome to the nothingness 

The everything 

The valley of my being

Welcome home 

My friend

Center stage

 Show me where to stand

Dictate what I should say

The unforgiving regret

Takes center stage

The beast untamed 

Takes center stage

For all the world to see

To judge

To set free

If the hearts desire

But savage sensibility

Takes center stage

Night

 How many miles traveled 

Watching the asphalt

As it unravels under wheel

The stars rotate 

Without a given guide

Gravity, unified

The closed eyes stare

Calls it a night 

The heart anywhere

Calls it a night

Unspoken disagreement 

Spoken admiration

Where's the admission of termination?

The stars fade away

Without a warning

Gravity, unfortunately felt

The open eyes stare

Calling only at night

The heart felt elsewhere

Calls it a night

Wake up lonely again

Escape comes from within

Bleeding emotions 

The open heart dares

Calling upon familiarity 

The heart slowly dies

Calls it a night

Don't give in

To the night

Shadows dance

In the night

Don't give up 

Into the night

What's next

 Reality isn't everything 

It may never be the truth

What can we do about it?

Moving on

Tear it up

Scream aloud

Punch a pillow

Or maybe a face

Set it afire

Design a plan

Exploded emotions

Whispering man

Match the intensity

Forgive the weakness

Promote Unity

Seamless

Do whatever it takes

Do what you need

To process the loss

And move on

Interference

 It's true

The tears don't fall

Even though the sadness 

Prevails

It's true 

That I am lost too

Even if it seems

I do not care

There is a chemical 

Affecting me

Making me better

Making me strange 

The pill that helps stop the hurt

Stops the hurt all too well

And leaves me with nothing

But

Interference 

Anew

Bloody knuckles

Hardened soul

Helpless romantic

The open road

Forgiven trespass

Forgotten love

Within temptation

Take off the gloves

Breathing deeply

With closed eyes

Holding steady

Eyes on the prize

It's time

To begin

Refreshed

Reborn

Anew