Dizziness of my existence

Consuming death a little at a time

Swallowing darkness like its wine

Averting my eyes to the truth

Not owning up to what is mine

Confusion the likely cause

Confessions sound like blame

Emotions riding very high

Nothing will ever be the same

Inky black intentions arise

Giving birth to new terrors

New dimensions seen through virgin eyes

A life filled with senseless errors

Consuming life a little at a time

Swallowing pride for those whom I pine

Averting my gaze to absolute truth

Owning what is clearly not mine

Confusion blurs barely visible lines

Confessions show life is so unfair

Emotions denied time after time

Nothing seems to achieve care

Intentions shine with your words

Miracles like a virgin birth

Dimensions rounded like a curve

Can never achieve my true worth

Collision

Lace and shadows

Barely underneath

Fate and fortune

We barely make ends meet

Ends meet

Heart and emotion

Forgotten innocence 

Luck and good genes

We barely make any sense

No sense

Collision course with repeated history

This is on both you and me

Collision course with inevitable screams

From between both you and me

Fear and drinking

Steer me leeward

Grief and hunger

We keep digging deeper

Too deep

Death and salvation

Sold on late night TV

Health and decay

We're digging our own graves

Not okay

Collision course with repeated history

This is on both you and me

Collision course with inevitable screams

From between both you and me

Collision course with revisionist history

This is on both you and me

Collision course with unreliable seams

Tearing apart both you and me

Ends meet, no sense

Too deep, we're not okay

I am, section 16, July 2026

I am,

Not the boldest,

The oldest,

Nor the coldest

I am,

Not the shiest,

Or the driest,

Nor the spry-est,

Of beings.

But somehow, 

Despite my limitations

 (to include, but not limited to, night blindness, incontinence,  anal leakage, vision failure,  erectile dysfunction,  heart palpitations,  shortness of breath,  seizures,  cone, kidney failure,  liver stones,  temporary blindness,  skin lesions, lung cancer, throat cancer, bone cancer, blood cancer, heart cancer, love cancer (it kills very slowly), pancreatic explosion (super rare, but noticeable enough to mention), aneurism, additional limbs, third eye (blind...duh), stuttering, lying, cheating, masterbatory dreams, sweat soaked sheets, fantasies, realities, alternate reality, multiplicity, duplicity, and single hardcore porn videos and websites,  fruit allergies,  turkey fears, nightmares, vomiting,  vomiting from nightmares,  nightmare causing vomiting, shingles, the plague,  mites, mice, hamsters in the ass, lice may occur....

As well as....

Loss of hair, motor function, autonomy, systematic controls, the swing arm, balance,  hearing, sight, urinary function (you're gonna pee yourself), flatulence,  constipation,  consternation,  participation , and free will 

May be 

Questioned, missing, suspended, mispronounced,  misinterpreted,  miss thang,  misty waters may bring summer showers but the focus is on

Me 

My dysfunction 

Function

Wants

Desires

Denied

Deprived

Undesired

I am

Coming

For

You

My mind

I wish you could be here

To see the epic match inside

Battles and quests, here and there

I face every single day

My mind is so configured

To balance the wrong and right

My heart, so disfigured 

Unaware of it's own might

If you could see

And feel

What i feel

If you could taste

And smell

What I can

You would unveil 

The mystery 

My mind

Maybe

I heard a hundred thousand reasons

For the way our lives devolved

I heard a million more excuses

It disrespects all of us involved

But I gave the benefit of doubt

I hoped we could work it all out

Maybe

When the stars freeze over

Maybe

When the hells arise

Maybe 

When the hurting ends

Maybe

Maybe I'll survive

I cried a Hundred thousand teardrops

Life pours from my eyes 

I've tried a million different ways

To keep up this disguise

I gave the best parts if me away

I hoped that the love would have stayed

 Maybe

When the hells freeze over

Maybe

When the stars arise

Maybe 

When the healing begins

Maybe I'll survive

Don't tell it's different now

Because I feel the same

As I always did

As I always will

(Chorus 2x)