Fly close to me
protect me from the sun
stay close to me
shield me from
everyone
hover
in my bubble
hover
in my mind
hover
close
every time
Fly up ahead
warn me to run
stay close to my head
free me from
every one
hover
in my circle
hover
ever so kind
hover
too close
for piece
of mind
the activity you partake
takes from me
the activities I make
fulfill me
so back off
but hover close
save me
from those
I love
most
hover
I want
I want
I want
I need
I feel
I feel
I feel
I bleed
I wish
I wish
I wish
I kneel
I pretend
I pretend
I pretend
I defend
I honor
I honor
I honor
I fail
I
Eye
The beholder
How do we know
When do we know
when
when
it's
gone
*whispered (too far)
In the heat of the moment, something he waited for
So did she, but scared, she said no
And it happened, something you can't ignore
Nothing to say, he just walked away
after he took it
too far
It was only a joke, told among his pals
how he laughed, they did too, peer pressure
But the hate behind the line, something you can't ignore
Too much was said, they wished him dead
after he took it
too far
How do we know, when the action exceeds the limit?
How do we feel, when the moment has passed?
How do we know, the right from wrong?
When do we know, if it's taken too long?
A simple moment, taken too far
A word or phrase, leaving a scar
A hateful movement, life taken apart
Unleased fury, taken too far
Leading a broken nation, with ideology obscene
Extinction on the brink, blind faith in fear
Swarm the nearby countries, genocidal rage
Suicidal release, a cowards way
The pillars of faith, secrets hidden within the robes
Denied for decades, nearby and across the globe
Heinous indignity, in the name of make believe
Righteous damnation, damned the victim for eternity
How do we know, when the action exceeds the limit?
How do we feel, when the moment has passed?
How do we know, the right from wrong?
When do we know, if it's taken too long?
A simple moment, taken too far
A word or phrase, leaving a scar
A hateful movement, life taken apart
Unleased fury, taken too far
A new instance every day, captured for the world to see
Kneeling on the neck of the public, cries of inequality
Colors targeted and slowly bleed, officers take no heed
Self defense is no defense, when murder is plain to see
Close my eyes
and take a breath
exhale the pain I feel
before trying to heal
Close my eyes, ask for forgiveness
for all the times, I've taken it too far
How do we know, when the action exceeds the limit?
How do we feel, when the moment has passed?
How do we know, the right from wrong?
When do we know, if it's taken too long?
A simple moment, taken too far
A word or phrase, leaving a scar
A hateful movement, life taken apart
Unleased fury, taken too far
We're not stupid
We're selfish
and in our greed
We take it to the extreme
too far
the darkness falls upon another empty day
In the sun I sit, with nothing left to say
I've asked so many times
so many times denied
I close my eyes
and cry inside
basking in the warmth
of my darkness
short distances cast lengthy shadows
midnight sun casts an eerie glow
nothing left of my former shell now
perhaps it is time, time to go
I close my eyes
and cry out loud
Shaking in the heat
of my darkness
Mental pictures distort reality
My lenses need to be aligned
Forgiven sins keep erupting
Nothing can save me this time
I close my eyes
and open my heart
bleeding dreams of hope
of my darkness
hope can blind you
to what you really see
it can twist the facts
and warp reality
So I close my eyes
and twist reality
I close my eyes
Open my bleeding soul
I close my eyes
and truly see
my darkness
i'm lost
trying to get my bearings
no stars to follow
no compass
just the death of family
and the hope of life
to propel
me
forward
it's not the blade
straight to the heart
or lungs
but the
thousand little cuts
that will
do me
in
a letter
handwritten, with love
reaches a heart
on another shore
the words
they capture the moment
the intensity
the desire
the meaning
the commitment
the yearning
the fear
a million miles
a single a mile
it doesn't matter
nothing matters
except the words
and the intent behind them
that is all
that matters
it shouldn't be so difficult
anymore
I shouldn't have to fight back tears
anymore
it shouldn't be so bleak
some days
I shouldn't have to fight back screams
or tears of rage
I tried to do everything right
maybe not everything
I tried to do most things right
and got burned
forgave the unforgivable
and crushed my soul
I didn't have all the answers
I still don't
I didn't have any courage
I have some
I didn't have the strength
weakness still
I didn't have the will
to just walk away
I shouldn't feel so lonely
with you by my side
I shouldn't feel so desperate
maybe it's my lack of pride
I shouldn't feel it'd be better
if maybe I'd died
I shouldn't have to relive
every single lie
and when the tears stop
and the rage subsides
and the sadness eases
and memories hide
I can face
another day
of melting into
oblivion
in your eyes
a new low
embarrassment
stretching from coast to coast
power
unused, fueling
flames of utter
disgrace
a fall from grace
(if it was ever attained)
and we watched
as a right became a mob
an act of insurrection
and violence
and death
stolen crowns
regretful actions
this place will never be the same
again
Sometimes
it eats at me
until
I give in
Like the weak specimen that I am
That I can be
It erodes the barrier of resolve
and gnaws at the inner core
degradation
infatuation
addiction
addition
by
subtraction
I give a piece of me
even when I don't think I can
Even if no one cares
not a martyr
I would never
But someone who gives
even when
no one wants
me
I've written posts
to add to a total
I've written posts
To create some kind of invisible boundary
between being good enough, or read enough
and being good enough, in actuality
I've written posts
so I can surpass previous years
So I can reach a new high
But no one reads them anymore
I've written posts
For an unseen audience
of many
of few
of one
of
me
I've written for you
whoever you are
How is that possible?
I've written for me
I have
but that means nothing to you
the reader
I want
you
to take my words
and find meaning in
yourself
to open a layer
maybe undiscovered
maybe familiar
and feel
something
maybe you feel nothing
Maybe my words drop
like rain
hitting the ground
puddling, making life messy
they still mean
something
to
me
We don't always win
We don't always place
Sometimes we don't show
We persevere
Truer, sadder words have never been spoken
We persevere
Because, that's what we do
Or we don't
Because there is always another way
and that way can be
Failure
Failure is an option
If we don't fail
We don't succeed
If we don't fail
We don't learn
If we don't fail
We don't grow
Take away the negatives
If we fail
We succeed
If we fail
We learn
If we fail
We grow
Failure
Is
An Option
And sometimes
The only one
And it hurts
There is so much in the world
the art
the beauty
the music the food
take a second
a minute
and try something
undiscovered
and discover something
about
you
some times it's a thread
or just a shred
of decency
the point where
I can face the day
turning point for me
replacing the dread
I'm not dead
to the point
I can walk away
face another day
little bits of humanity
floating in a sea of disharmony
grab on and hold with all my life
because it depends on these
little moments of happiness
small reminders that all is not bad
little moments pain free
with some faith in community
I can hang on
my will draining
until
the next miracle
sometimes it's the aroma of bread
or the color red
commonality
a point where
I can face the day
where all good points meet
replacing the dread
I'm not dead
to the point
I can walk away
face another day
little bits of humanity
floating in a sea of disharmony
grab on and hold with all my life
because it depends on these
little moments of happiness
small reminders that all is not bad
little moments pain free
with some faith in community
I can hang on
my will draining
until
the next miracle
it never seems like much
what keeps me sane
it never feels like much
but I'm not the same
until
the next miracle
the harshness of the new reality
more than most souls can bear
the reality of the current harshness
bares more souls so bare
burning up
burning down
falling farther
than I ever felt I could go
this dance was all
was all for you
The crassness of my mortality
more feelings about how I care
the mortality of the crassness
cares more of the feelings I care
moving up
moving down
burning hotter
then I ever felt I could
this dance was all
was all for you
tear it down
deconstruct
build it
from the ground up
all for you
dance
all for you
set it afire
all of it
there is nothing left to save
light it up
there is no comfort
no pity
no charm
light it up
love is afire
let it burn
there is nothing left to give
light it up
failure to launch
no fireworks
no charm
light it up
running from the inferno
fruitless endeavor
set my life on fire
and meet my desire
watch me
burn
carving your name
into my skin
will never
ever make you
mine
carving my pain
into my skin
will never
ever make it
mine
carry8ng the world
on shoulders so thin
my back was aching
to make it
mine
burden of worlds
on a mind so thin
will never
make it
mine
nothing to give up
nothing to give in
nothing else mine
nothing but skin
wishes vanish in to the air
like they were never there
leaving me with
skin
