No help from above

Angels

Blinded by their

Undeniable faith

Can be assholes

She sailed the ocean blue

 She dances

In a lace dress

On the edge of the abyss 

A child older than possible

A woman defined by time

And injustice 

Falling

Not falling

It's all the same here

In eternity

The captain honors

Her dance

And she dies a thousand deaths

Before she dies 

Another language 

Another custom

Another day 

 

Tedium

Boredom

Death

The seas claim another soul

In 

Absenteeism 

Beauty

Horror

Waves

Shock waves 

Through my heart

My soul

My life

Responsibility 

Options

 Faded colors

that bleed

into the soul

Faded commitment

that bleeds

into my heart

Wither or not

Without 

in

 the colors are all wrong

and the wind blows from within

wreaking havoc on my heart

and the spaces in between

indecision

in utero

in decisive

improper

the plaything decides not to play back

the future looks dark indeed

the decisions of our forefathers weigh

on minds devoid of conscious thought

the bruises hide well

the evidence of hatred and sin

wreaking havoc on my life

and the relationships within

away

 Breathe in the words

the meaning of my, life

Single handed obsession

Regard digression

Close my eyes

takes me back

Close your eyes

Take you away

There is no common ground

There is nothing to share

There is nothing left here

Be on your way

Breathe in the meaning

The words of my, life

Single handed digression

Disregarded obsession

I evacuate the location

Of my current state of mind

Relocated within

And without reason

Close my eyes

Close your eyes

Take us 

away

disconnection

we used to make a spark

we had a fire burning

between us

but now there is only chilly air

and the distance grows

between us

I tried to make the connection last

but selfishness proves too strong

I tried to give in but I gave up

and nothing will ever last this long

without

a decent

connection

Letter

 I read your letter

it's stuck in my head

I felt the words you wrote

I felt the dread

And the scene you described to me

And the tale you decided to tell

shook me up

The elders at the table

with the flowers so blue

The decision to fall from

Heights beyond me and you

the crushing blow

the end of the breath of life

the devastation

the endless strife

I read your letter

and I cried more than a tear

I read your letter

and now I'm here

at the edge of the ledge of eternity

a step away from redemption

A breath away of uncertainty

and literal freedom

I step back

and punish all

who stay alive

exposed

nude

in front of the 

entire world

voiceless

among the screams

deafening

embarrassed

and bare assed 

the same

eyes closed

heart open wide

let me know

I stand before you

I stand beside you

exposed

Scourge

Wipe us out

in masses

or one by one

Wipe us out

Even the score

The earth is fighting back

creating viruses

and diseases unknown

And we can do nothing about it

Our own hubris

will be the end for us

Wipe us out

With new variants

Old favorites

and the plague

Wipe us out

Kill us all

The evil and innocent, alike

The angels and the demons

The just and unjust 

The mighty and the powerless

will all fall

to the final

scourge

Itch

itch

unable to scratch

tingling, teasing

invisible

sensation

unable to reach

endless, relentless

unyielding

aggravation        

helpless

unable to mend

tickling, annoying

unwavering

exhaustion

unable to sleep

with this

unyielding

relentless

tingling

itch

Get the job done

There is always a knife close to the vein

Or a roof tall enough to float from

or a vehicle fast enough to meet a tree

or a pandemic sitting right here

ready to finish this

Another reflection

 Mirrors

Glass

And Eyes

Show us what

we don't want to see

An image unrefined

untouched

and full of misery

Reflections of the mind

the body

the soul

for everyone to see

Reflections of the fear

the dreams

the hopes

and what we want to be

reflections of myself now

and in the past

and in 

eternity

Peripheral darkness

Dancing on the edges

of what can be seen

hides a darkness

a blackness obscene

Preying on my weakness

of what I hold dear

hides a phantom

of my imaginary fear

I can see it coming

getting closer every day

I know it's coming

Can't get out of the way

The darkness

that we all run from

the darkness

that surrounds all

the darkness

the we come from

the darkness

I hear the call

Dancing on the line

between worlds so close

hides a secrets

that we fear the most

Praying on my weakness

and all I hold dear

Hides the mystery

and release of all my fear

I can see it coming

getting closer every day

I know it's coming

and I'm in it's way

The darkness

that we all run from

the darkness

that surrounds all

the darkness

the we come from

the darkness

I hear the call

the darkness

the inevitable darkness

coming for me

coming for you

The darkness

that we all run from

the darkness

that surrounds all

the darkness

the we come from

the darkness

I hear the call

I can see it

at the edge of my vision

growing closer every day

every way

the darkness

we all will

feel

Hover

Fly close to me

protect me from the sun

stay close to me

shield me from 

everyone

hover

in my bubble

hover

in my mind

hover

close

every time

Fly up ahead

warn me to run

stay close to my head

free me from

every one

hover

in my circle

hover

ever so kind

hover

too close

for piece 

of mind

the activity you partake

takes from me

the activities I make

fulfill me

so back off

but hover close

save me

from those

I love

most

hover

I, I, I,Eye

I want

I want

I want

I need

I feel

I feel

I feel

I bleed

I wish

I wish

I wish

I kneel

I pretend

I pretend

I pretend

I defend

I honor

I honor

I honor

I fail

I

Eye

The beholder

puzzle

there are so many pieces

and no smooth edges

nowhere to start

piecing myself

back together

again

Too far

 How do we know

When do we know

when

when

it's

gone

*whispered (too far)

In the heat of the moment, something he waited for

So did she, but scared, she said no

And it happened, something you can't ignore

Nothing to say, he just walked away

after he took it

too far

It was only a joke, told among his pals

how he laughed, they did too, peer pressure

But the hate behind the line, something you can't ignore

Too much was said, they wished him dead

after he took it

too far

How do we know, when the action exceeds the limit?

How do we feel, when the moment has passed?

How do we know, the right from wrong?

When do we know, if it's taken too long?

A simple moment, taken too far

A word or phrase, leaving a scar

A hateful movement, life taken apart

Unleased fury, taken too far

Leading a broken nation, with ideology obscene

Extinction on the brink, blind faith in fear

Swarm the nearby countries, genocidal rage

Suicidal release, a cowards way

The pillars of faith, secrets hidden within the robes

Denied for decades, nearby and across the globe

Heinous indignity, in the name of make believe

Righteous damnation, damned the victim for eternity

How do we know, when the action exceeds the limit?

How do we feel, when the moment has passed?

How do we know, the right from wrong?

When do we know, if it's taken too long?

A simple moment, taken too far

A word or phrase, leaving a scar

A hateful movement, life taken apart

Unleased fury, taken too far

A new instance every day, captured for the world to see

Kneeling on the neck of the public, cries of inequality

Colors targeted and slowly bleed, officers take no heed

Self defense is no defense, when murder is plain to see

Close my eyes

and take a breath

exhale the pain I feel

before trying to heal

Close my eyes, ask for forgiveness

for all the times, I've taken it too far

How do we know, when the action exceeds the limit?

How do we feel, when the moment has passed?

How do we know, the right from wrong?

When do we know, if it's taken too long?

A simple moment, taken too far

A word or phrase, leaving a scar

A hateful movement, life taken apart

Unleased fury, taken too far

We're not stupid

We're selfish

and in our greed

We take it to the extreme

too far

My Darkness

 the darkness falls upon another empty day

In the sun I sit, with nothing left to say

I've asked so many times

so many times denied

I close my eyes

and cry inside

basking in the warmth

of my darkness

short distances cast lengthy shadows

midnight sun casts an eerie glow

nothing left of my former shell now

perhaps it is time, time to go

I close my eyes

and cry out loud

Shaking in the heat

of my darkness

Mental pictures distort reality

My lenses need to be aligned

Forgiven sins keep erupting

Nothing can save me this time

I close my eyes

and open my heart

bleeding dreams of hope

of my darkness

hope can blind you

to what you really see

it can twist the facts 

and warp reality

So I close my eyes

and twist reality

I close my eyes

Open my bleeding soul

I close my eyes

and truly see

my darkness

onward

 i'm lost

trying to get my bearings

no stars to follow

no compass

just the death of family

and the hope of life

to propel

me

forward

1000 little cuts

 it's not the blade

straight to the heart

or lungs

but the 

thousand little cuts

that will

do me

in